I should start calling this the "complaining corner" cuz i only seem to complain on this site instead of posting what i did as part of my daily habbits. Well, maybe ill start that next time, but for now, i have more to complain about.

since my last entry, ive done alot of thinking about Masters. although i still havent come to a conclusion, im feeling alot better than the last time i posted. after researching the research areas of every professor in the four universities i will be applying to, i sat back and read each of their researches carefully and narrowed it down to about 10 or 15 professors, i just have to get in touch with some of them, and find out if i qualify at all to work for them. that being said, i still havent decided what i want to do from a reseach standpoint. the professors ive narrowed down to, still encompass the major research areas im interested in engaging in. So this morning i went on the concordia website and looked for a career couseling service. Concordia does have a generic one, but what i noticed is that most of the major departments have their very own service specialized for students in that department, EXCEPT for the ECE deptartment. why am i not surprised. my personal feeling about concordia's engineering department is that it sucks. anyone in the deptartment will atest to that fact, the department just blows major nuts. I would say the last time the ECE dept was respectable was about 4-5 years ago, or atleast the graduates from that time were respectable. i know about 8 or 9 people that all graduated from that time, told me about how the program was structured, and how it was extremely focused on generating some of the best engineering students in the market. when i compare with today's department, i have to say, i really missed out. they have an obsession with being 'an accredited' department, that they've totally forgot how to generated qualified student. its almost ridiculous how many teachers simply re-hash midterms, and finals, and how many students still complain about how hard a class is. instead of judging students on their merits, the department feels like that best way to control the grading is to just not give A+ or sometimes A. its downright annoying. and dont get me started on the co-op program.

shit, i didnt realize how much ive written so far, ill just stop here. i have lots more to say, but ill save that for another day. holla!

So i spent today looking at Universities, and man am i overwhelmed. This is NUTS! i have zero idea what I want to do with my masters program. atleast ive narrowed down the number of universities: University of Toronto, Waterloo, University of BC and Queens. they all have awesome programs, and im not sure which one is 'for me.' check this one out actually, its at UofBC, they have some REALLY strange projects. http://hct.ece.ubc.ca

i think ive also narrowed down some topics in engineering that i wanna do. Computer Architecture is one, AI/Machine Learning/Pattern Matching is another, DSP/Image Processing/Video Processing is another, and Lastly, BioEngineering. my biggest fear is that these are some pretty high end programs, meaning you have to be the cream of the crop to get into them. and i dont know if i am. im sick of people saying "oh dont worry, you'll get in" and i think thats complete BULLSHIT! they dont even know my situation. they just say stuff like that. how about some real advice like what should i go about doing to improve my application? Im really scared i wont get accepted, because thats the only option ive thought about. i never thought about what would happen if i dont get in. the thought is a little scary. i want to do my masters, as badly as ive ever wanted to do anything my life. i feel like engineering here is so incomplete. im missing something. but my big issue is i dont know what i like. of those topics i listed above, i enjoy doing anyone of them, but is that the right one for me and my future? and then theres the whole fear of tuition. i guess ive been spoiled up to now by having my parents pay for school, cuz god knows i could never save enough for that. but when i do my masters, am i going to get a scholarship? or will i have to pay out of my own pockets? i can't afford to go to any of the universities that i listed. ill admit, my gpa is pretty good, its still hovering over 4, but is that enough? what if i set my heart set on going to waterloo, and then they dont accept me cuz they only take people with 4.3 gpa? will i have a backup plan? ive never felt SO MUCH uncertainty when it came to school. i ve always known what was gonna happen next. when i was in elementary school, i knew i was going to st. thomas high school. when i graduated from there, i knew i was going to john abbott, when i fnished there, i knew i was going into computer engineering at either mcgill or concordia, and i never feared not being accepted. now that im nearing graduation, have i done all that i can to make sure ill get into a masters program? i dont want no shitty program thats just not for me. i can go on and on about this, but im going back to looking at universities, im at the last one UofT, they have alot of teachers :)

Hollla! so ive been putting this off for a long time, and i guess ill make this my OFFICIAL debut. im not even sure why i have a xanga, who the hell is gonna read about my life? well i guess i will. its a good sort of diary. and i have to admit, i have been writing in my xanga, but they've all been private. im not sure what that means, what does putting it in "protected" mean? and how do i get a COOL skin without upgrading to premium?

well check, ill be done school next week hopefully. we have a final report due soon, it was SUPPOSED to be due next thursday, but the teacher gave us an extension, which i didnt really want, because i would have finished on time. but its a group thing, so even if i finish early, the rest of my team wont, which means that i wont be done next week. sucks. i have an oral to do next week, and the team wants to use powerpoint. we only have 5 mins each, and i dont wanna fumble through slides, but the teacher said if we bore the crowd, we'll lose marks. which sucks, cuz im in a group with people who english isnt their first language.

so that's all for today kids, ill try to write as much as possible, but honestly, who cares? no one is really gonna read this.

HOLLA